Luna Park

Me, my brother and stepdad went to Luna Park today for my brothers birthday. It was the first time id seen him in months.
It was nice though.
And I decided I want a helicopter :)

He kissed me on the cheek as Ryan chased feral cats

*giggles*

Meeting people off msn...

...Is freaking awkward..
and I knew he liked me so that made it worse. The three of us got lunch and were practically in silence the whole time, but I was texting this other guy that was mates with him begging him to come and save me but he said he couldnt.
I told him he better make it up to me BIG time.
Turns out after the two guys left me at the station, I ended up meeting this other guy and his mate. He is so hot. My goodness. And he kissed me on the cheek :D it felt like heaven..

We got on a train and went to the next station where they live. We spent most of the time walking but they made me laugh so much. The other guy went and got maccas but on the way out he stopped to check out this feral cat.. he starting harrassing it and so forth, until he came to the other side of the bush and realized there was an entire family of cats and the mother was staring at him. He screamed like a girl lol. It was so cute.
So he spent like the next 20mins chasing after these poor feral cats. It made me sad but at the same time he is a funny kid. And me and the other guy sat there talking :)
If I didnt feel so ugly I so would have hooked in. But gosh I feel ugly.
I cant wait to see him again. He's younger though..

What have I done?? Lmao..

Without meaning to, I accidentally led this guy on. I just wanted to be good mates with him but its now obvious that he likes me and I think he thinks I like him.
Im meeting him and his friend tomorrow... with no moral support. Oh no what will I do? Im scared and I feel quite uncomfortable. Im not good at rejecting people. I mean I keep mentioning my crush to him, yet he still seems to hint stuff to me..
What am I gonna do??

But the good news is, I FINALLY got my new bed today!! Its so amazing.
xx.

Guys and hints continued..

Also when a guy calls me babe I think something of it. But then they turn around and say "oh but I call all my mates babe"
Thats funny.. Ive never heard you call anyone babe before :(
Am I the only one that thinks calling someone of the opposite sex babe means something? Sure you can call really close friends babe, but not people you're flirting around with.

Guys and hints

I hate the way guys never get hints. Its like you actually have to say "im upset" for them to notice.
Why are guys so oblivious to the incredibly obvious hints you give? And sarcasm.. OMG. Why cant they just get it? Im struggling to cope because im not a blunt person.

Although I must admit it can be fun hinting over and over and watching them never get it. Its like dude how dumb can you get??

holidays

Yesterday was so amazing!!

I spent the day at a mates house..
We watched I Am Legend.. a movie i really had no intentions of seeing, but my mate made it good.
I like him. Im worried about what he thinks of me though. He was the first person to see my new hair and my hair looks HORRIBLE! How embarrassing :(
But he kissed me though so maybe it isnt too humiliating.

My holidays have been ok. Im just so bored right now coz all i can think about is talking to him. I write texts to him but i always gotta make myself delete them before i send them.

I really cant wait till Sarahs bonfire party =D its gonna be great!
and im going for my learners on monday.. fingers crossed i pass. I havent really looked at the book since january lol. Better get my act together.
and yeah.. thats about it